I have been reminded recently of how impossible a task it is to be patient. Sometimes, waiting is a delight. The passage of time between now and what is to come is filled with wonder and excitement. Yes. Sometimes, the wait is almost more thrilling than the satiation of our anticipation.
Most often, though, waiting is absolutely miserable. This is especially true when the outcome is unknown. Patience is a virtue; my grandmother told me this countless times. Still, despite many years of determined practice, I remain incredibly impatient.
These are waiting days. February. It reeks with discontent and anxious anticipation. Restlessness has seeped into my sleep. The what-ifs and maybe-thens play a game of tag in my mind. Whispers of brighter, more fulfilling days taunt me from afar.
So. Lying in my bed a few nights ago, an unexpected contentedness, a pure and sweet peace, draped itself over me. For a moment, I was utterly aware of life's sweetness. My husband sleeping soundly at my side, Lucy the beagle at my feet, Bernie the mutt in his crate, Thurman the cat in the window. Soft, supple blankets surrounding me, pillows cradling my head. Warmth radiating from the heaters. Occasional sounds of car doors and tipsy voices and alert dogs, signs of life. My own breath, in and out. My own heartbeat, thump and thump.
Blood oranges. Have you ever seen a fruit so beautiful?
And donuts. Because, why not?
Baked Blood Orange and Vanilla Donuts
- 1 cup unbleached all purpose flour
- 1/3 cup sugar
- 1 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon nutmeg
- 1/4 teaspoon cinnamon (scant)
- 1/8 teaspoon cloves (scant)
- 1/2 cup almond milk
- 1 teaspoon apple cider vinegar
- 1 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1 flax egg (1 tbs ground flax seed, 3 tbs water))
- 4 tablespoons Earth Balance (melted)
- 1 tablespoon blood orange zest
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Grease donut pan.
- In a medium mixing bowl, stir together flax meal and water, allowing to congeal for 5 minutes.
- In a small bowl or measuring cup, combine milk and vinegar. Set aside for 5 minutes, allowing the milk to curdle.
- In a large mixing bowl, whisk together all dry ingredients. Set aside.
- Add melted butter, curdled milk, vanilla, and orange zest to flax mixture. Whisk together until thoroughly combined.
- Add wet ingredients to dry, mixing together gently until just combined. The dough should be relatively thick.
- Using a small spoon, scoop dough into donut pan. Spread the dough with the spoon or with your fingers until it fills the cup evenly.
- Bake for 11-13 minutes, until the tops bounce back when touched. Allow to cool for at least 10 minutes before removing from pan. I find a fork helpful in easing them out of their cups. Cool completely on a rack before dipping in icing.
I hope this day brings you a moment of peace, a glimpse of the people and things that fill your life and make it meaningful. I hope you are filled with gratitude.
And, by all means, have a donut.
**donut recipe adapted from Chloe Coscarelli.